Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Today was weigh day! IT WAS A GOOD ONE!

April 30th, 08
I’m STOKED! I lost 9.2 lbs! Can you believe it! This definitely makes up for last week of losing none! YAY ME! Now I weigh 288! I just can’t believe it. If you would have told me last summer that this spring I would weigh under 300 lbs I would have asked you what magic pill your going to give me because I was not ready for the work this was going to take. But God put my mind in a different place and helped me to deal with my miscarriages in a healthy way rather than the way I was which was internalizing everything and EATING a whole lot and not caring about myself! I am just so excited. I know your thinking who is excited about weighing 288 that is ridiculous but if you have reached a low of hitting 372.8 lbs than you will appreciate being under 300 and down to what I am today! I am just so thankful to my family and friends who have supported me…I love you all! And God number one giving me the strength! I have so much more to go but I just wanted to take the time to say how truly blessed I am! YAY! Now I’m just 15.2 lbs away from my 100 lb short term goal mark! Then we will start working on the next 100lbs! Gosh I never thought I would be able to say I have lost this much weight without pills or surgery, just healthy eating, exercise, God and supportive family and friends! WOOHOOO for 288!

Feeling great....

April 29th, 08
K so I have been super busting my butt this week and I’m actually looking forward to tomorrows weigh in! Im praying for something big! I have been working out so much and eating everything is such little moderations! God has really helped me through!

Monday, April 28, 2008

I was behind a couple I'm now caught up!

April 17th, 08
Packing to go to Flint and I am so excited about it! Leaving tonight!

April 18th, 08
We are in Flint for the weekend celebrating my birthday and going to the “Laugh your way to a better marriage” conference. Today we spent time in the sun at the campground fishing and working out and just spent time together it was great!

April 19th, 08
This morning we went to the conference. After the conference we went back out to the camp ground and spent the day out there. Chris spent the day fishing and I did some too. I only caught one fish the entire time but that is okay the wait was worth it.

April 20th, 08
Its Sunday the day before my bday and we are going to the campground and having a cook out and spending the day out there. We went putt putt, fishing, and out on the paddle boats which was a work out. I got a crap load of sun and I’m loving it! YAY! What a great birthday weekend! I am so blessed. I even did good with what I ate I didn’t over eat although it was things that I don’t usually eat so I’m thinking the scale wont move much if at all this week!

April 21st, 08
Its my BIRTHDAY! But I have to work. Chris got me lunch today. And we drove home this morning. Gosh this weekend was so great. This is the best birthday I have had in a while! I love it! Thank you Lord!

April 22nd, 08
Well tomorrow is weigh day and I’m not looking forward to it because I didn’t over eat but just ate some things my body isn’t use to. It is okay though even if I don’t lose weight I wont be too upset about it this time. I will just work extra hard next week to get it off!

April 23rd, 08
So I predicted right, I did not lose weight. But like I said I am okay with it being it was my birthday week. I am going to bust my butt this week to get this fat off though.

April 24th, 08
My workout today was great. I just love working my butt off at the gym(literally). My workouts have been great. And my eating habits are so good now. God is just awesome.

April 25th, 08
Its Friday my day off! YAY! First I had a great workout. Then I went to lunch with Chels and to the huge farmers market in Elkhart. Then I cam home and got ready to go on my birthday date with my hubby! I spoiled myself and got ribs. But I got the small order and I actually split that dinner into 4 or 5 meals between the ribs and sweet potatoe I was set for meals throughout the next day which was nice. It was a great evening with my hubby!

April 26th, 08
Went to the gym with Chris which was great as usual. Great workout. I can’t wait for next weekend when we get to go to flint. I’m praying for nice weather so we can spend most of our time at the camp ground!

April 27th, 08
This weekend has been good! Busy with work but good. Getting all my workouts in and eating healthy. Although I have felt super hungry all weekend and feel like I have been eating non stop, but it seems to be working for me.

April 28th, 08
Monday morning! I just got back from a meeting at work. And now I’m gonna work out! I’m praying I hit my 80 lb mark this week. Which means I will have had to lose 4.4 lbs this week which I know is a stretch but I can do it especially since I didn’t lose anything last week I know I can pull this out….I have to! So time to go work out!

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

I lost some this week...YAY!

April 15th, 08
Not must to say today. I’m not looking forward to going to work but oh well. At least this week is my 3 day weekend which I cannot wait for! Tomorrow is weigh day and I’m praying it’s a good one!

April 16th, 08
Today I weighed and….I lost 3.6 lbs! I’m happy with that. Now I’m at a total loss of 75.2 lbs! God is soooo good! He has helped me through! No stopping here though must keep pushing on! Still a long way to go!

Monday, April 14, 2008

work work work....ugh!

April 14th, 08
I had 3 meetings at work today and 2 out of the 3 were not that great…but like I always say its just work. I mean I want to do my best, but I’m also not going to get upset over it either! Today was good. Had a good workout! Nervous about weigh day and praying I dropped below the 3s! Weigh day is coming soon!

Sunday, April 13, 2008


April 12th, 08
So I did it. I went back to the gym again last night and it was great. This time I did 90 minutes on the elliptical. Which put me at a total of 3 hours and 20 minutes of cardio…woohoo…who would have thought it! Today we didn’t go to the gym but I did do the biggest loser workout which is a killer every time! Well gotta go to work! God bless

April 13th, 08
Today we went to the gym and I got 80 minutes of cardio in on the elliptical. Then we came home had lunch and then I headed out the door to work. I just got home and I’m super tired so I’m going to bed! GOODNIGHT!

Friday, April 11, 2008

Killing it at the gym...who would have thought I would LOVE going to the gym this much!

April 11th, 08
Last night I worked with this woman who told me and I am her inspiration. That made me feel so good and just boosted me on this long journey I’m on! It was great. Today I killed it again at the gym. I spent 80 minutes on the elliptical and 30 on the bike. It was awesome! I felt so good about myself and the fact that I can do the elliptical for so long! It was just amazing! God has just been great to me! All is great! I’m actually thinking I’m getting ready to head out to the gym again and get a good swim in and stuff! Who would have thought I would WANT to go work out and 2 times in a day!

Working out a lot...

April 10th ,08
Today I worked out hard again at the gym. I’m hoping that it really pays off come weigh day! I want to drop below that freaking 300 lb mark but it just keeps staying there in my face but it is about to go away this week!!! Well gotta go to work! God Bless!

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Trying to get over it....

April 8th, 08
I have been working out so much lately and kicking butt. I’m trying to forget about the past 2 days and move on. God is good! Tomorrow is weigh day!

April 9th, 08
Well I only lost a pound this week. I’m bummed about it but okay with it. I will just continue working my butt off! I spent 60 minutes on the elliptical today and I use to only be able to do 2 minutes talk about a huge improvement. I am proud of me.

Another Rough day....

April 7th, 08
I worked a double today and I expected the day to be wonderful but a huge damper was put on it. Today I took my boys that I work with to the museum in Chicago. Well they have everything in this museum its pretty great until….they have this section about prenatal stuff. And that have actual babies there that are kept intact by some fluid that’s in the jars that they are in. These babies were all alive at one time and now they are on display at a freaking museum. I got to see exactly what stage each of my babies were and what they looked like at the time I miscarried. There was also a set of twin girls there, and I can’t get that image out of my mind. What the heck is wrong with this world. I was so disturbed by this….I had remove myself from the group for a bit I couldn’t keep it together…and I have been so good at it but this I couldn’t. I was sickened for the day. I will never go to this museum again….I just don’t understand….

Rough day

April 6th, 08
Today was happy and tough for me at the same time. I went to one of my best friends baby shower. it’s the first one that I have been to since miscarrying. I have some how avoided every baby shower until now. And I just could not miss this one. And what was I suppose to say I lost 2 babies over a year ago and I can’t come to your shower…yeah right. Talk about having a poker face. I’m pretty sure I covered up my true feelings quite well. I mean don’t get me wrong I was super happy for her…I love her and this baby and she deserves to be a mom. It had really nothing to do with that. And it wasn’t like I was feeling sorry for myself either. I guess I really don’t know how to put my feelings into words except for maybe heart break. But I just have to suck it up. It is what it is. Lord thank you for helping me keep it together today!

short entries...

April 3rd, 08
Today I went to the gym with my hubby and then went to work. Not much interesting. Still doing good with the food! Thank you Lord!

April 4th, 08
Today I didn’t get a chance to go to the gym with Chris because I had to pack for Flint. I’m leaving when he leaves for work. I will be in Flint till Sunday night and I have lots to do so I must get off of here.

April 5th, 08
Well even though I didn’t get to the gym yesterday I still worked out last night. Went on a long walk with mom and also rode my new bike which was a super work out! It was very hard! It is going to take a while to build up my endurance on it but it is going to happen!

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

WEIGH DAY!!!! Had to make up for no weight lost last week and I did!

April 2nd, 08
Its morning time and I just weighed and…….I lost 6 lbs WOOHOOOOO!!!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY! I’m super excited about that! This puts me at a total of 70.4 lbs lost. I’m so happy! God you are so good…thank you for getting me here and for continuing to give me strength!

Can't believe its already April!

March 30th, 08
Well its Sunday and I feel like we got a lot done. We got up early enough to listen to the entire church service online and make it to the gym and get a full workout in. However today at the gym I don’t know if I pushed it too hard or what but I was on the verge of passing out. And also felt some horrible pain in my upper belly which I thought was possibly a hernia. Thank God the pain ended up going away and finally felt able to walk around….also thank God Chris was there! God is good and his protection is amazing!

March 31st, 08
Today I had a meeting at work and I planned on going to the gym but after the meeting I got really light headed again and started sweating(almost like an anxiety attack without the anxiety because I wasn’t upset). It was really weird. I was going to go to the gym anyways but Chris wouldn’t have been there if something happened so I skipped it on that day. Its okay I will make up for it. I have learned that I don’t have to go every single day and taking a day off here and there is fine as long as it doesn’t become multiple days off but you should have at least one day off per week.

April 1st, 08
Today is April fools…but no one played an april fools joke on me today which is good! Things are good. My workout today was really good! Tomorrow is weigh day…and I’m super praying for something great because I lost nothing last week so I need to make up for that. Have a great day and be blessed!